Turn Left Fifteen Years Ago

by Courtney Smith

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  • 'Turn Left Fifteen Years Ago' is Courtney Smith's début album. It was produced by Ross Cole. Album artwork was made by Bennie Allain.

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Written by Courtney Smith
Produced by Ross Cole

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released December 9, 2015

Bennie Allain - album art
Marcus Fougere - drums for 'A Folk Song', 'Birds Don't Sing' and 'Senses'
Dan Logan - bass for 'Birds Don't Sing' and 'Senses'
Ross Cole - drums, vocals for 'Butterpillar' and 'Bitter Heart'

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Track Name: Senses
When the world sits so quiet in the air I breathe it in
Hold it in for as long as I can
Amber lights are flashing in my eyes
Everywhere you go they're there filling up the night
The fireflies of urban sky

But I redirect all my senses to
The perfection in this madness
The beauty of it all
I breathe it in, I breathe it out

I eat all the words that I am fed
And I speak this language I don't quite get
I just make it up as I go

But all you need to see is in front of you

When the world sits like water in a glass I drink it up
Every second to the last drop
Everything cycles, everything moves
Every line is just a circle, it's always beginning
and its new

But I redirect all my senses to
The perfection in this madness
The beauty of it all
I breathe it in, I breathe it out

I eat all the words that I am fed
I speak this language I don't quite get
I just make it up as I go

But all my senses fall in line around truth
And all you need to see is in front of you
Track Name: A Folk Song
I can't get high, it's all the same
Have a drink, it's all the same
Wake walking through my dreams, and sleepwalking through my days
I'm the sum of all my doubts and this debt I cannot pay

I prefer to be alone when I'm lonely
So I drive around this town on my dumpster bike
Running circles through the quiet streets
With Elliott on my right
And the world becomes this place that I watch from the outside

'Cause some days there's just too much to contain
Feel the clouds rip open, letting go the rain
I feel the earth cave in beneath my feet
And the air is thick as concrete, it's much too thick to breathe

So I make my way back home
So strange how fast it all calms down
After the highest pain it all turns into glass
And I stare out of the window of it all
After all the world is a spinning toy top
Track Name: Night Walks
The night walks, the night talks
The night walks, the night talks

The sun falls out of the sky
And the satisfied fall into sleep
Bodies that can't take the change
From the whom to this spinning place
Lay awake
With a head full of songs
A mind full of moments and faces
Patterns between them
You're a passenger in your own mind
The embodiment of all you've seen

The night walks, the night talks
The night walks, the night talks
The night turns me

You can find me laying on these breathing streets
Find me laying on the streets
You can find me laying on these breathing streets
Blowing out all of the stars
Track Name: Birds Don't Sing
I am the stone that you skip across the surface of the water
Counting all of the ripples that I make
And you are the water that I sink into with every breath I take
Falling deeper in each shallow promise you make

I've walked through all the countries that you told me to go to
Fed a starving mouth or two along the way
I've kneeled with preachers who told me they could save my soul
But I'm not sure that I have a soul to save

All my stupid lies got me in this place
I am a ghost of someone I'm not even sure ever existed
I'm so full of shit sometimes, it's all that I can taste
All I know is that the memory of your eyes
Burned a hole in my brain

Money is medication for my broken dream
I put it in my nose, stick it in my arm
And I fly away to a land where nothing means a thing
Where the birds don't sing
Where the birds don't sing

Put your eye against the glass, what is it that you see
A bunch of shapes and patterns reminding you
Of places you'd rather be
So tired of being a painting that you made when you were ten
Sitting on your dresser somewhere in your mind
A two dimensional being
Track Name: Butterpillar
Finding my way to the sky
I'm part caterpillar part butterfly
Fluttering one wing I'm losing my sight
This reflection reflects nothing right
This reflection reflects nothing right

Avoiding the truth is much easier
I don't want to cause trouble excuse me sir
This world's complicated and miscalculated
And every word I speak is a lie

On we go and on we go
On we'll run through this stretch of light
And you'll say this time everything is different
Eventually it's gonna be okay

Standing in line for an hour
I don't have the strength, don't have the power
This energy is forming a new design
and everything you do, everything you say
The shape of your eyes
It makes me want to cry
It makes me so afraid

You'll fade away
You'll fade to nothing
But I don't regret a second of this pain
'Cause pain is love, love is life
But everything you do makes me want to cry
Track Name: Bitter Heart
Cover your ears, the wind it is cold
You don't want them to ache
Take good care of all their hearts
They're easy to break
Watch your steps, not so fast
Don't leave it all behind you
When you look back you'll see the love that was me
Has made a home without you

Took all your words and buried them in the back yard
Under the tree where you sit
Took all your love tried to sell it at a yard sale
No one would buy it 'cause it ain't worth shit

Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh my bitter heart
Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh my bitter heart

Took all your things and burnt them in the back yard
Under the tree where I buried your words
The fire department came, asked me what I was thinking
I explained I was sad about something
Collected my tears in a big mason jar
And labelled it wasted time
You showed up to see me and I slammed the door
It occurred to me that you're just a dirty whore

Next time you see me, I'm gonna 'cause a big big scene
Next time you talk to me I'm getting a restraining order against you

Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh my bitter heart
Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh my bitter heart
Track Name: That's Not Me
And I will write of the thoughts that come to my head
And I will not mind the greatness of heaven inside of your face
And all you'll find, all the things that, everything inside
I don't want to say
Is better off unsaid, better off unread

In this light there's lots of pain
But I don't mind, these eyes will say
And I will wait until the day when I
Don't give a fuck, give a fuck about anything

Tell the children to focus and get to what they want to do
Reach their dreams, reach their arms out
Reach out and find something
Anything

That's not me, that's not me
And I'll never be anything
Close to something they want me to achieve
And I don't know just what I mean and
Nothing seems to inspire me
A broken heart is the only thing
That ever made me write something beautiful
Something beautiful
Track Name: Nothing
Eating the apples from all the wrong trees
Picking out worms one by one
This garden is big but it's too small for me
The games I play are losing their fun

Four billion years it took me just to see
I'm wrong and this whole world is right
But isn't it humbling and isn't it strange
In the darkest hour you see the most light
If I hate this night then I'll hold on tight
To the morning

Say all the things that you don't want to say
before they spill our in all the worst ways
But I can't deny that I'm so scared to die
I lock all the doors to this day
But my dreams reach high, they unfold my eyes
The dying leaves on this tree fall to the ground
and roll around
and laugh as the sky sings a song all about nothing